I'm kinda sick right now, but feeling better.

I'm getting artistic; getting things done, but I have so much to say,

so much to do,

so little time.

Everything is flashing by in a blur and I'm just standing there without a sound. Drowning in my envy, hate, want, love, sorrow, joy and all those feelings in between. It's just a time where I just can't distinguish what is what and it's driving me insane. Exams are coming up but so is winter break. So much time gone; so little done and so many things missed.

My parents are also fed up with the B's I'm getting. I don't know what's going on and what to do, I mean, they're high B's, and I only have a few, the rest are A's. How can I please them? My mom just wants me to give up my best friends, be a shut in and stay with her. I just can't do that.  I will not let go of these precious friends. I've never defied my mom, can't she understand just this once how important they are to me? I don't care anymore wether theycare or not. Just screw it. I consider them my best friends and I'll keep it that way until they can say to my face that they don't care.

What do I do?I'm not nearly as depressed but--there's just something inside of me itching to get it out. I need to talk to a friend, but I'm too afraid.

Damn

 it 

all.

Labels: Friends, harsh, life, stuff, ugh